I fell in love with life again!

13 May

There are many stories out there, stories that can be told, stories that can inspire people, there are stories that are funny or stories that are motivating people or simply are beautiful, but there are also stories that can’t be told, because it is impossible to express in words their significance! You keep it in your soul and treasure it!

I was planning to write a story about my race and about me, but in this short trip to the absolutely wonderful countryside village at 1000 m altitude in the Carpathian mountains, I’ve learned that there are so much more interesting things to talk and think about!
mountains landscape

All I can say is that I FELL IN LOVE with the world again, I hopelessly fell in love with life, and I fell in love with the wonderful mountains, but most of all I fell in love with the people, the people that so beautifully live there, or people that just came for the race, with every single person that I met, with every single runner, spectator, volunteer, organizer, winner or not winner, fast or slow, old or young, because they were so beautiful!

ecomarathon race start

It was such a different world up there, magical, surreal, where the sky seems ready to fall on your head at any time, where people are still going to their garden for the food and not to the supermarket, a world where people are looking to the sky for weather forecast and not on the internet, a world where people are still connected to the nature and to each other. Like this old lady that lives on the mountain and every year she comes out at her gate to give runners a fresh glass of water from her garden spring!

And so the race was not anymore about winning or losing or not even so much about running! It was life itself and I had to surrender to its absolute, irrevocable beauty!
me race

And I remember very well how a few days before this race feeling tired I was asking myself why am I doing this for!!! Ohhh dear God, did I find out again, what is running giving me?!!!!
I experienced it again maybe at a greater length and deeper in my heart than ever before! Every time I go to a race I feel like I am taken out of my world and thrown into this crowd of people where I feel love, and beauty and magic!
And it will never cease to amaze me how a simple thing like running can change the world and the perspective so much, and especially when happens so close to the sky, yes maybe because we were closer to the sky things started to seem miracles! And people angels, like in the stories we loved to hear when we were kids!

So running is so much more than moving faster than walking, running is a place where you can go and find a better you, it is a place where you can go and find a better world, it is a place where magic happens!
animals

Thanks Gabriela Cuzepan for some of the photos!

Fun girls run faster!

9 May

I was training the other day for this important (for me) trail race I have this Saturday …

I was running a difficult hill, after a week of running and running, and running, uphill mostly, and I was honestly feeling whipped like a speckled pup, like I was in a tumbling machine and I was spinning around ready to come to pieces, and I asked myself …why am I doing this, why am I putting myself through this?

Well I hope I will find the reasons again this Saturday! At least I know the suroundings will be amazing!

moeciu ecmarathon

But meanwhile I was trying to make fun of myself and read some funny stuff about running to cheer me up!

This is some of what I found:

Back of running t-shirt:

“If you see me collapse, please hit ‘Pause’ on my Garmin.”

“Born to run. Forced to work.”

“Like my shirt? After the race, I’ll let you read the front.”

“Looks can be deceiving; our workouts are a lot longer than our shorts.”

“If found on ground, please drag to finish line.”

“I thought they said ‘Rum’!”

“Does this shirt make my butt look fast?”

“Pain now…beer later”

“Don’t pass me….I’m not in your age group”

“One more mile and the cake is history.”

“If you can read this, I’m just warming up.”

run-run-runner-the-edge

Have to admitt I already feel better, and ready for the hills again!

The happiness trick!

5 May

Do you know that in America alone, people are spending as much as $750 million on self-help books a year and more than $1 billion on motivational speakers? More than 100 colleges offer classes in positive psychology — the science of happiness!!!
But in the same time the use of pharmaceuticals to combat depression, anxiety, insomnia, and a whole host of stress-related health conditions including ulcers, IBS, and high blood pressure is sky rocketing!
I am using USA numbers because were easier to find but we can definitely extrapolate this to the most of the “advanced”, “civilized” world!

Let’s face it now the “advanced, civilized” economy is fuelled by keeping us a little bit unhappy….

“If I just had that… if I could just afford that, if I’d be somewhere else…. THEN I’d be happy, all that is there for sale, a new car, a bigger house, a new, ground breaking technology phone every year, millions and millions of products are designed OF COURSE to make us HAPPY, but we can’t be happy until we have them all, and you can never catch up, because the advanced, civilized companies are always faster, better!

The trouble is often people confuse happiness and joy with pleasure, with satisfying the senses, and if you need evidence for this, let’s just use the easier example, the billion dollar porn industry, and how EVERY thing in advertising is related to sex, sex sells, sexy house sexy car, sexy garden, sexy dog, sexy furniture, sexy chair, sexy donut, sexy hamburger, sexy pills ha ha ha, you name it, you sexy beast!!!

So it is not so surprising to see how, hoards of people are pursuing pleasure all their life, trying to capture it, to possess it and wanting to know that it will be there, in the same way, day after day.

But pleasure is a real bitch, isn’t it…. pleasure is very elusive, and can never be capture, it will always need more and more ….products, things, situations, people, excitement! Get’s you GREEDY, the pursuit of pleasure transforms us in greedy creatures!

AND pleasure is always dependent on the outside, depends on external circumstances that we can, very little control, and in the end we become more and more empty and miserable!

But happiness and more important … joy ALWAYS comes from inside, ALWAYS!!

The science of happiness that we became obsessed with is encouraging us to believe that there is always a better moment than this one, a better experience that we are supposed to be having, this moment is not enough, is not the moment that we should or could be living.

It’s another form of GREED, we want more, better, we want our life to be perfect and our happiness indestructible!
We keep demanding that life be something other than what is, and created a science of creating imaginary scenarios to make it happen!

Why don’t they teach us how to be okay in this life as it is, and experience it, right now, without turning the experience into an identity, positive or negative?

STOP for a second and tell me, is it anything fundamentally wrong with the moment you are in RIGHT now?

And after all why judge, why putting a label on it, there is so much beauty even in the most imperfect moments, there is so much beauty even in the most imperfect human beings, there is so much beauty as it is, we don’t need to change it, just to open our eyes and see it, instead of being busy judging it and wishing things were different!

Joy comes from being able to experience our life, right now, joy comes from being free, not from the experiences we do not want, but within the experiences that we have!

There are no perfect people, there are no perfect lives, there are no perfect relationships, there are no perfect places to be, but there are perfect moments to be lived, sometimes even in the most imperfect circumstances, why waste this moments being busy with chasing the wind?

You are joy!

I am too happy to write!

3 May

rock sculpture
Isn’t it funny the way it works, I mean this writing thing, when I am really happy I cannot write, I don’t want to write, I can’t be bothered, especially if it’s about …significant, important things!

Give me storm, give me tornadoes inside, give me maddening confusion, give me overflowing emotions, and I soon start and everything comes out easy!

I guess I am just trying to say I am really happy, and I feel it’s not fair not to be able to share this as well but all I want is to go out and enjoy my happiness, and I don’t care why I am happy, don’t want to analyze it! I just am and it’s great and I want to indulge in it!

I guess I’ll have to make myself miserable somehow if I want to keep this blog, or I have to find a way….

When do you find it easier to write?

10 things girls need to know about lasting relationships!

27 Apr

worried
1. A relationship works by itself, once you found the right person all you need to do is to be you and everything will just be great! No, of course you don’t have to work on it, be smart and let your partner do all the work!!!

2. Prince charming is waiting out there, just for the right moment to come in your life and sweep you off your feet! You don’t need to do anything, just pray he will come on a white horse, and as the years go by, remember even a limping one eyed donkey will do! For transportation that’s what I mean!

3. Love is all you need to have a successful relationship. Once you’re together for life, the earth will move, fireworks will explode and you’ll make love every single night! And be aware if your partner really loved you and cared about you, he would instinctively know how you feel, and what you want and need to be happy!

4. If it feels right it is, I mean if it feels right for YOU of course, never consider how your partner will feel or have to say, quit thinking that much, go and get it, at the end of the day it’s your life and the relationship is all about you, isn’t it?

5. Your partner role in your relationship is to make you happy, they have been born to rescue you from unhappiness, and give you meaning and purpose to your life!

6. Once you found the right person , please completely forget about your friends, who needs friends anymore, dump them, you have the love of your life to focus on now, so:

- Completely blow them off for previously made plans

- Refuse to answer their efforts at communication (text, email, phone, etc).

- Get angry with them for trying to get in touch.

7. Expect your partner to always be there to fulfill your wishes. Remember you should always have what you want because you’re worth it! And even if he has to give up on everything is important for him to get it, especially then, he should do it for you, after all you are more important than anything else, aren’t you?

8. If your partner ever makes a mistake, never forgive, never, and make sure you will remember it always, make sure to remind him every day for the rest of his life, if not you who else would do it?

9. Possessiveness and jealousy are the biggest signs of love. And you don’t want to be in a relationship that is OUT of love, do you? So make sure you put in enough of that and add some drama queen staff, men absolutely love this!

10. Never focus on what you can do to make things right, always remember what your partner did to make things wrong.

Now if all this fail try this:
guide-to-lasting-relationships-woman (1)

Paradise lost, mind found!

21 Apr

I carry heaven in me, everyday, I wake up and my being is there, feeling the warm and the peace and the happiness, I feel that little craziness and hope, and I am open to get the world in, I am ready to smile all day, to enjoy and accept all is around, and I can swear I will hold it with me in everything I am going to do!

But ohhhh dear god, you punished us well, very well when you cast us out of heaven, you created….. the built-in alarm, yes that buzzing, never stopping noise inside us!

alarm clock trap

We call it MIND, we do, and it does wake up, every morning, a bit slow, a bit late, a bit tired from the previous round, still carrying the black eye from the punch I gave her yesterday but is more alert than ever, ready to analyze, every move calculated, scenarios ready and it only knows this world, and only its doings, cause and effect, patterns, expectations, projections, and she is always right!

My being is ready to accept there is no past or future, to accept the present, and not knowing what will follow does not even make it ….blink …. is ready to completely enjoy everything and everyone! There is no sin or sickness, no stress or strain, there is no fear, we and all that it is, IS enough, and we are perfect!

I still carry heaven in my being but I can never find the alarm stopping button in time, and nothing is enough for her, for my Mind, she wants me to be better than anyone else, she entered me in this competition with everyone and the world itself, I need to never give up , I need to be confident, outgoing, attractive, smart, responsible, emotionless, powerful and merciful, active and reflective, kind and competitive, I need to be better in bed, to be pretty, to be a heartbreaker, to be beautiful, in control, to be famous, likable, organized, popular, I need to be more than I am .. much more!

And I know at the end of the day, my mind and her best friend EGO is going to hold me responsible for not being all that, and will tell me I am useless and unimportant, and how awfully I let the world down!

But there is still hope because I know I still carry heaven in me, and I know the truth and if I look into it, I know I am and I have all I need, all the happiness, all the joy, all the peace, all the goodness is inside me, heaven is there and there is where I want to be, not where my mind is trying to take me!

mind versus soul, spirit

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